do you remember the days, did you forget those days?

dire_anecdotes @ 2005-02-19T02:00:00

2005-02-18T07:00:56Z

yeah so for those who already know and those who dont i now have a myspace. i know what most are thinking, that im a hypocrite for always puttin it down but trish set it up for me just so i could see what its like. and i figure i use this livejournal hardly ever anymore, so why not somethin different. im just not really online at all anymore, i guess ive just gotten bored with it all but im givin it a shot. bowlings become cool again, at least for me steve n vinny. it was our second night in a row goin. im gettin better but i feel like such a nerd. we cant find anything better to do and its better than video games.
valentines day was awesome. it was my first with an actual vanentine (trish). i got her chocolates and some estee lauder perfume, a lil pricey but well worth her reaction. and im glad to say the whole night went great, and things have stayed that way since. things are feelin better than ever with that girl, im really happy with her.
this sunday is snowboardin with chris at okimo. cant wait for that. then theres two shows which are gonna be nuts. the one pretty much everyone knows about in oneanta that chris set up march 5th, and the one in nyc. chris' is got after the fall, the outcome, thousands, the truth hurts, n outta hand. the one in nyc is comeback kid, bane, silent drive, n such march 6th. go if you can and watch out for face melters. ok im really tired.

dire_anecdotes @ 2005-01-24T05:06:00

2005-01-24T05:32:21Z

most people probably dont even read this anymore so why im doing this remians a mystery. ive always been touch and go with the lj, it takes either great boredom or big news. this time its big news, and not the good kind either.
trish is moving in august to arizona.
there was always talk about me going there and her going for college but basically our options have come down to this. shes definatly going, and me. well im stuck here in a depressing community college and not alot of ideas to where im going after im done. i found out a few days ago and it hit me pretty hard. we've both been trying our hardest to look on the bright side of things or just avoid the truth, but it keeps catching up to me and its been really rough. right now she plays such a huge role in my life its impossible to imagine myself without her. we've been together now for 10 months (in three days), to some that may not seem like a long time, but with everything we've been through it feels like years. we have 5 months left together, and it still just doesnt feel real. i cant stop thinking of the day she'll be leaving. saying goodbye and watching her plane leave. it scares me so much to think about it. im pretty much lost without her. all we can do for now is just enjoy the time we have, and make the most out of everything we can. im still trying my hardest to hold onto some form of hope however. i keep telling myself that theres always the future and there could always be a second chance down the road. i think ill always have that feeling inside me now. i even feel fortunate in some ways. many couples end on bad terms or realize that things arent working out for each other and it just simply ends. its a clean break but you usually lose them forever. but i know ill always have a place for trish no matter how long were apart, and can always count on us remembering each other in good ways. these next five months are going to be the best and sometimes hardest we've had, but it will all make this whole relationship that much more meaningful. im just takin it day by day and lovin her to death.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-12-28T22:55:00

2004-12-29T04:04:57Z

vacations in full swing. its been pretty good so far, except for the fact that trish isnt here, i talk to her like every day but its still hard being so far apart, its def. not the same without her here. miss you boo.
so last night me n chris and sam went to the mall for a little bit, we ate and i ended up buying a new deck. i got the new colt cannon/ tosh townend siamese. its pretty sick, and i got it fer only 40 instead of 65 with my discount, and the powells and tsx boards which are normally 40 i can get for 20. i love it. after that we went the shelter and skated for like an hour then there was a show there which was awesome. verse was really good, i bought one of their tee's and then headed out the the diner with vinny, steve, and mike. we just talked and laughed until we were all crying and my stumach hurt really bad. it was good catchin up since college has destroyed our social lives. tomarrow me and teenwolf are goin to check out the tsx park, im gettin me n him in fer free and early before all the little kids. so just us and the kids who work their will skate until it opens to the public. cant wait fer that. im goin to set up my new shred sled and call trish. later.

long time no read

2004-12-22T07:53:35Z

i havent updated this thing in a while, i dont know if its because ive been working so much, or if i just dont care about online anymore. it all feels kinda dull and boring to me now, even just talking on aim but whatevs. so im working two jobs at the moment, my main job at on the run which is sucky, and my new job at TSX which is awesome. im waiting to quit mobile soon tho, i just cant stand being there and their screwing me over so much. i already missed thanksgiving because of them, and now i gotta work xmas eve, and xmas day then work a 43 hour week. but TSX is perfect for me, im already good friends with everyone there, i love the environment, and im around people i can actually talk to about skating and stuff. and the best part is they own a skatepark in kingston that i can get into for free anytime i want. ive definatly found my dream job, but unfortunatly whether or not im a permanant employee isnt really clear right now. i wont know if there keepin me until after the holidays. so in the mean time im bustin my ass there tryin to make an impression. the only draw to all this is ive been really stressed on time. at most i get one day off a week and i spend that with trish. shes been really patient through all this, and i know its gotta be tough. shes in school all day then by the time she gets out im already at work until midnight, and to make it worse shes leavin friday for arizona for 2 weeks. even though this is only until i settle down with one of the two jobs, i dont know how many other girls out there would deal with me never being around. but if theres one good thing from all this its that shes proven to me how determined she is and how much she cares and misses me. thanks trish you've been great to me, i love you.
so tomarrow im working at TSX 3-12 and then thursday im spending with trish since shes leavin the next morning. sometime in that day i gotta finish my xmas shopping too, which ive waited way too long to get to.
im fallin asleep so thats all for now, merry christmas to everyone if i dont update before then, and come visit me at TSX sometime yall. zzzzzzzzz.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-11-20T23:20:00

2004-11-21T04:41:47Z

so i ended up going to jethro tull or however you say it with trish friday. it was at the palace theatre in albany, and sucked haha. trish agreed but we still had fun despite the hundreds of drunk rednecks screaming around us. i guess if your into like southern rock n stuff it wasnt bad, but it wasnt really anything spectacular to me, ive seen better old rock bands before. today didnt do nothin really, just worked 2-10. i finally had a little payback too. heres what happened, this guy who comes in every night to buy 40oz's of malt liquer was especially rude to me and jim around 930. he was yellin n stuff for us to help him and hurry up. so like always i kept my cool and just waited on him, he threw his money on the counter and just kinda huffed that i wasnt fast enough at meeting his needs for getting drunk. so i still stayed calm and just rang him up, i didnt say a word i was just thinking of everything i wanted to say to this a-hole, but i couldnt. so as im thinking this, something horrible began rumbling in the depths of my stumach. i slowly turned away to walk from the register, but before losing his attention, i released a loud fart directed towards his face. he just kinda looked at me stunned and walked out the door. but to add insult to injury he left behind his precious alcohol, so he had to come back in and smell it to grap his beer and just ran out. i think in many ways im like the rosa parks of all convenience store clerks around the world, and i have a dream that someday we will all rise up against those who disrespect us and let out a smelly cry of victory.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-11-14T22:00:00

2004-11-15T03:12:53Z

so friday was oneanta. picked up steve round 12 got there about 1:30 or so, wasnt a bad drive at all. the campus up there is awesome, soo much better than gay hvcc, it made it look like prison. his dorm is pretty nice dispite the cig smoke, lots of cool kids. we pretty much just hung out n played halo 2, ate dinner, then played halo again, then ate food again. good times. we actually played with some of his buddies and one of em was the kid from "mtv made". he was the fat football player who wanted to become an opera singer. hes a nice kid, down to earth, but smokes so much weed i guess. he was on my team but we got our ass kicked, i guess fam does not copinsate for bein a nerd. the drive home was kinda sketch, dark, foggy, really windy, and ice all over the road. luckily we made it home in one piece. saterday i had work which was, yeah, work. today got my oil changed, put my hubcaps back on for winter, then went out to dinner with trish. ruby tuesdays was kinda overrated, good food, just not enough of it and way too expensive. afterwards we went to lark for ice cream. perfect way to top off dinner. ben n jerrys, oh yes. was another awesome night with trish, love her with the bigness <3. total weekend grading, thumbs up fun.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-11-12T00:28:00

2004-11-12T05:40:01Z

so far this weeks been pretty exciting, compared to most others. works been kinda fun lately, the dramas hasnt been bad this week so thats prob why. but i actually like it there sometimes, i guess its just an easy job that pats well and shouldnt really complain too much since some of my friends have crappy jobs that pay lousy.
yesterday was trish's birthday, i tried to surprise her a little by sendin her roses to school, i was worried she wouldnt even get em cuz the hall moniters were anal about it like everything else. they havent changed at all since i left. they said it was for security reasons, like a kid with roses to his gf is a threat or something, whatever thats all that matters is she got em ok. after i picked her up we went to the mall so she could buy some dress clothes for dinner that night at the macaroni grill. dinner was awesome, i love that place, a lil pricey but its both our favorites. after dinner we went to see the polar express. people might think thats lame or whatever but all i gotta say is go see it, its such a good christmas movie, i cried. jk but i almost did later on that night when we went back to nicholes, her little kitten got locked out of the house all night and was sittin by the garbage can hiding and crying. it was like the saddest thing ive ever seen in my life lol. i <3 kittens.
so trish spent the night there and i ended up fallin asleep early fer no reason. tomarrow im headin up with steve to oneanta to visit chris, then afterwards vinnys party or something goin on there, im still unsure about the plans but should be an awesome friday. so thats my exciting week, nothing spectacular but its been the best in a long time, summer probably. love you trish.

lil story

2004-11-07T04:33:07Z

so i figured since i had to work 2-10 today it was gonna be dull just like every weekend i work, but it was pretty amusing. as soon as i got to work it was all blocked off, firetrucks ambulances and emergency environmental cleanup was there. i knew it was something big cuz last time they were all there someones car spilled all the gas from a leak in the tank. so i went in and my boss told me the deal. i guess friday this guy i work with let someone who broke down use a gas canister but he never used it for some stupid reason (couldnt open it??). so the guy didnt know what to do with the 2 gallons of gas. so i guess he figured the toilet was a good a place as any. what he didnt know is the pipes circulate all through the store and by morning the fumes were too strong to breath. 2 employees were sick, 1 threw up alot, and 1 was sent to the emergency room. it was total choas while i was there and dispite all the trucks and cops outside poeple were still driving around the cones tryin to come in, says alot about the customers i deal with every day. so since the store was shut down most of the afternoon work wasnt bad, just cleaned and helped out since i had nothing else to do. no ones still sure what exactly happened, one cop told us around 10pm that someone tried cleaning it with bleach, which could have caused the toxic fumes, but gas alone can be really bad. are asst. manager wasnt sick but was pretty high from it all so he was in his own world. as for me, i just kinda sat back and got my entertainment for the day. i guess work wasnt bad? gotta go in again 10-6 tomarrow, then trishs uncles for her birthday, should be a perfect ending to the night with her, i just hope im not too late coming from work. the end.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-11-05T00:12:00

2004-11-05T05:30:17Z

im not lookin forward to winter, already the cold is gettin to me. every time i got early classes i gotta warm up my car and scrap off the frost. driving in a freezing cold aint fun at all and when its at 730 in the mornin its even worse. i didnt have much planned for today, just relaxin and visitin trish breifly at school which was fun, but my co-worker called and asked if id come in so she could leave. i figured i could use the money so i went in for half a shift. right off the bat i was hearin complaining directed towards me from my asst. manager. i blew it off cuz it was a waste of time tho, i do my work and dont need others tryin to bash me on stuff i didnt do. so me n jim had a fun n easy 5 hours. apparently the gas station down the street (where i always get gas since its cheap) was shut down this mornin along with the whole corperation. the guys who run it were known terrorists and had alot of tax evation charges. im not sure how it went down, but the fbi and state police had the place surrounded. who woulda guessed the guy i talked to at least once a week was wanted by the fbi. it kinda put this whole war on terrorism thing into perspective for me i suppose. so now instead of payin my $2.08 for gas im back to payin at least 5 cents more. from what ive heard its gonna only get higher from here. tomarrow im goin out with trish then hittin up a play that her cousins are in which will be alotta fun, i cant wait. im workin for the rest of this weekend so ima make sure tomarrow is awesome and we have a great time. love her like whoa.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-11-03T22:50:00

2004-11-04T04:27:44Z

for a while now ive been keeping myself busy, staying offline, and avoiding aim. i guess i just got bored with it all, dial does suck most of the time anyways. but i just recently got roadrunner, im paying for it, but i figure its worth it, and i can afford it so why not. so far the only thing ive found good use of is dl songs alot faster and playin halo online. im a nerd whatever. nothing else has really changed. my life always seem so dull when i look at it in a broad perspective. im sucking so much at college right now. im soo behind and all my classes are lame. i thought taking a bunch of hard classes that seemed cool wouldnt be so bad, but i was wrong. i slacked off alot too so that definatly didnt help at all. next semester im taking a different route, the basic one that most kids do. bush won the election, im not even gonna get started on that, lets just say the country's still digging the hole were in. i dont necessarily support kerry either, even if he were elected i dont think much would change. the consequences of our actions over the years are almost irreversible and no presidents gonna clean up our act in 4 years no matter who it is.
next friday im going to chrises college in oneonta, should be fun. then bringin em back home for the weekend, also fun. trishs birthday is in 6 days. im excited for her and got her somethin awesome, thats all im saying about that tho. wed night were all goin out to dinner at the macaroni grill, then the movies, then who knows. her family is having a dinner for her this weekend but unfortunatly ill be working. speakin of work, im so tired of it and was thinkin of quittin, esp. after i found out that im working thanksgiving, black friday, christmas eve and christmas day. but then i found out ill be makin 14 an hour on those days so i figure why not. making between 150 and 200 a week aint bad either, its nice havin the cashflow, now i just need my car to stop bein crappy so i can actually save up.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-10-03T20:22:00

2004-10-04T03:25:04Z

it would be like a dream...
that we couldn't wake up from...

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-09-05T13:31:00

2004-09-06T17:31:16Z

This time it was our summer. It was something no one could take away from us. Sometimes that night seems so close, like i could hold it. You said alright we'll be fine, but how could we have known? Do you remember?

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-08-31T23:03:00

2004-09-02T03:38:16Z

ok im gonna start by just sayin where ive been lately because im sure some people have wondered what happened to me. ever since college has begun ive been at classes from 8 until about 1. then after class ive been rushing to work and end up working 2-10 shifts every day. so basically im a full time student with a 30-36 hour work schedule. i know its not going to last though, im going to have to cut some hours at work because ive been doing my hw at work or late at night and i cant keep doin that. in what very spare time i have, ive been studying and reading up on poetry on classes and seeing trish. we just went to the plaza a few days ago and shes got the pics on her lj soon hopefully. i got this whole weekend off, and im plannin on goin shoppin for some much needed clothes, maybe goin to grafton, and just relaxin and catchin up on some work maybe. in the mean time i just gotta keep my sanity and not get too stressed. its way too late tho, night.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-08-28T15:01:00

2004-08-29T19:13:09Z

tomarrow i start my classes at college. it doesnt really feel like that first day of school feeling that im used to. its just nerve-wracking, i guess because of the unfamiliarity of it all. im not taking the classes that are for a major or classes like math n stuff. im only taking what i think will be interesting for this semester, just so i can get used to the way things are gonna be. this is what my schedule is gonna be like.

mon - 8:00am-8:50am - music appriciation I
- 11:00am-11:50am - college forum
- 12:00pm-12:50pm - introduction to philosophy I

tues - 8:00am-8:50am - music appriciation I
- 9:00am-9:50am - general psychology
- 2:00pm-3:20pm - poetry

wed - 12:00pm-12:50pm - introduction to philosophy I

thur - 8:00am-8:50am - music appriciation I
- 9:00am-9:50am - general psychology
- 2:00pm-3:20pm - poetry

fri - 12:00pm-12:50pm - introduction to philosophy I

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-08-24T14:34:00

2004-08-25T18:34:47Z

the next step is over the edge.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-08-20T15:16:00

2004-08-21T19:29:26Z

well its saterday. trish is finally comin home tonight, its only been 4 days but it feels like its been a week or so. i cant wait to hear from her, i miss her so much.
in case anyone hasnt heard, i finally got a job at on the run near crossgates mall. it sounds lame, but its really not hard at all. ive been working alot of hours, about 43 this week. and im makin 7 an hour so ill be rakin in about 260 or more a week after taxes. its def. what i need, and the people i work with are so layed back and awesome. the whole music shack thing was what i wanted to do the most, but they just had me runnin in circles waiting for them to make up their minds and i really dont have weeks to just wait around for them. havent been up to anything big lately. a few days ago i went over steves after work and we went to a demo at the shelter. it was pretty good minus all the little kids goin nuts over free merch. afterwords annie came over and we all watched bad boys 2 which plays shake ya tail feather like 7 times and has a car chase after every sentence. then yesterday after i had the day off so i decided to go to the shelter for a little while, then had to stop at hudson valley for more paperwork n crap, then back to the shelter. that night i went to sams surprise birthday party with everyone. she was kinda surprised even tho chrises mom n sister kept slipping up in front of her and almost gave it away. after that party me n steve went to aces house for a little get together. we watched super troopers and played duck hunt, much fun. that was pretty much it, im still in my work clothes and need to do something about that now.

[{summer fades to black.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-08-15T20:26:00

2004-08-17T00:59:35Z

i know no one wants to hear this, but summers comin to an end. im not really dissapointed to say that though, mainly because this summers been my best since a long time ago, and cause im kinda anxious for college. its gonna suck not seeing everyone as much, but i know ill make time for them and still keep in touch. one thing about summer i hate is being so clueless as to what day it is n stuff. i can never remember what i did more than a few days ago, just because of everything coming up in the next few. from what i can remember, sunday me and trish went to church again, people keep saying that sucks but its really not bad at all. its alot different when you go with someone other than your parents. and the church she goes to is alot more upbeat and involved than what im used to. anyways after church we went to panera bread for lunch with nichole and tayler. it was pretty fun and the food there is so good, its prob my new fav restaurant. after we ate we went back to nicholes and played a lil basketball, and did a little swimming. we played vollyball but trish hit my lip ring so then i was kinda done with swimming haha. that night we out for dinner at valenties. it was the worst place ive ever been to. the service was terrible, it was dirty, and it took an hour of waiting just to get a pizza that tasted soo bad anyway. our waitress was some old wench who trish wanted to beat up. they faught to the death and trish won and wasnt cranky anymore. so we didnt leave her any tip and went back to nicholes to try and watch a movie, which took us like 30 minutes to pick, but her tv wasnt working right so went unded up at trishes house. we watched 187 with samuel l. jackson and it was pretty good. today was pretty crappy. i had to wake up at 730 to go to hudson valley to get my placement test done and set up my classes. after i went and waited and filled out forms for an hour i managed to accomplish nothing. i cant take the test or choose my classes until thursday. once i got home i tryed sleeping but just couldnt. i brought trish out for some ice cream then dropped her off at work. then i came home and just sat around all day, skated a little, and ate suzy Q's (delicious). as for tomarrow, i have a physical and gotta get like 4 shots which should be awesome, then hopefully spendin some time with trish before she leaves for some retreat for 4 days. i <3 her.

her name, a single word. melts me, takes me to the ground.

2004-08-12T17:56:56Z

last night was alot of fun. me trish and nichole went to albany and were originally going to hang out at the plaza again, but instead we decided to go to the foot bridge on broadway since ive never gone before. we just hung out, took some pics, and ran around n stuff. there was a dock for the boats and we sat at the end with our feet in the water and just talked n stuff. afterwards we stopped by friendlys but trish started to feel sick so i dropped her off and stayed until she went to bed. a few days ago i also went to the track with trish and her uncle and aunt. it was my first time there, and my first time betting. we bet 2 bucks on a horse called "all for love". it started out in front and ended in dead last. i think it says something about my betting intuition. ive been spending alot more time with her lately and i gotta say this summer will go down as my best ever. things were a little shaky for a day or two but shes going through so much right now. i wont get into that thought. however, i can say that whatever happens ill be there right beside her the whole way.
theres no where else id rather be <3.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-08-11T12:46:00

2004-08-11T19:54:51Z

my promise to you will remain unbroken.

ill never give up.

woo

2004-08-05T16:31:12Z

its been a while, but im not gonna really write about everything thats happened since i last updated which was a while ago. just the stuff that comes to mind...

-went on roller coasters for the first time and loved it,
i was devirginized by the boomerang.

-played in a halo tournament and got beat by the biggest
nerds ive ever seen in my life

-had the worst nightmare ive ever had

-might have gotten a job at blockbuster, im just waiting for
my second interview

-went bungee jumping from 250 ft.

-rode electric scooters with trish

-got some new ideas for tatoos

-got lost in green island with almost no gas

well im sure theres more but i feel like crap right now and i wanna try to find some people to go skate today since its actually decent weather. later.

hellfest

2004-07-26T03:36:56Z

well i just got back from hellfest like 30 min ago. it was so much fun, i saw pretty much all the bands i wanted to. shai hulud and most precious blood were insane, and i got to see misery signals which was awesome. it was def the biggest show ive been to as far as how many people were there. for shai hulud i got up on stage and i swear it looked like there was about two thousand people from up there. the moshing was crazy just there would be like 30 kids at once. we saw a few kids gettin takin out in stretchers n other stuff too, so it was a little brutal. the car ride up wasnt really that bad, i pretty much slept the whole way there. once we got there the line was pretty rediculous, but lucky for us chris got there earlier and was saving us a place in line and we beat the rush. the only thing that sucked was they had a decent skatepark in there too, and while we were waiting for some bands n stuff i was soo bored. i just watched the other kids skate from the sidelines. oh well though, next year. word was that a dvd was being filmed by a pretty bigshot industry and im hopin maybe ill be in it a lil. on the way home we all stopped to eat dinner at nathans, it was a rest stop though so that was kinda risky eatin there. i tried sleepin the rest of the way home just cause i was soo tired, but steve n chris had to sit in back with me and kept molesting me in my sleep so that didnt happen. didnt buy any merch cuz i was kinda strapped for cash, but i wasnt too dissapointed cuz most of it was just leftover ones that no one wanted anyway. but im pretty beat so im wrappin it up.

~(from flesh to steel)

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-07-22T02:05:00

2004-07-22T06:08:12Z

the job search hasnt been going too well. ive either been rejected or told to come back in a few months. thing is, i need cash soon. im tired of worrying though, its just making me stressed out, im tryin not to be lazy though. this sunday is hellfest. i cant wait to go, its gonna be soo huge. for those who dont know, its in new jersey and costs 25 bucks per day. were only going for one day, but heres a list of all the bands playing on the day i go.

A Thousand Falling Skies, If Hope Dies, Cannae, It Dies Today, Fordirelifesake, Bear Vs. Shark, Alexisonfire, Death Threat, Walls Of Jericho, Sworn Enemy, Most Precious Blood, Death By Stereo, Shai Hulud (last show ever), Throwdown, Bleeding Through, Converge, Dillinger Escape Plan, Life Of Agony, Fear Factory, Stars Turn Cold, Breath Of Silence, A Perfect Murder, Zombie Apocalypse, Endwell, Misery Signals, A Life Once Lost, Planes Mistaken for Stars, The Bronx, The Promise, Fear Before The March Of Flames, From A Second Story Window, Merauder, 25 Ta Life, Bad Luck 13 Riot Extravaganza, Last Perfection, Wings of Scarlet, With Dead Hands Rising, Stabbed By Words, Drive By, Psyopus, Flat Earth Society, The Autumn Offering, The Acacia Strain, Dry Kill Logic.

~mosh~

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-07-17T12:31:00

2004-07-17T16:33:16Z

i lost my job today.
things just keep gettin better.

dire_anecdotes @ 2004-07-17T01:14:00

2004-07-17T05:38:12Z

its been a while
alots changed, some good some bad. it seems like mostly bad though. found out i wasnt accepted into the college i really wanted to go to. just one more thing.
i guess it was my fault though when it comes down to it. all i can do now is try hudson valley and hope im not too late. the worst part is ive been working on an art portfolio of all my work for this college over the past 4 or 5 months. now its useless. ive been thinking alot about what im going to do after i finish two years in college. right now im planning on moving out west. the destination isnt really important though, i just really feel like id be missing out on alot by staying here. a brand new start with brand new people seems like not only something i want, but sometimes something i need. but i know the way i feel now and who i am now doesnt neccessarily mean it will be the same in the future. right now things are all so confusing for me and with so many uncertainties im kinda lost. maybe thats why leavings been on my mind. my hopes are set on things getting better, but i know nothings guaranteed.
the only other news i have to write about is i got my lip pierced. its not really a big deal to me anymore though.
as for this livejournal, who knows. one week i could care less, other times its somethin to do. as for right now, ive lost interest.

i swear...

2004-07-16T06:19:13Z

a dream he would die to keep alive
scarred, burned, freezing, struggling for breath
he still keeps his hope tight against his chest
choking on words dry as air
times before of nights cryed fall short
for now all pain felt swells with dire results
she mourns the lost sight of horizons afar
the future beckons the coming storm with open arms
alone walls could never withstand loves crushing waves
crack and break at the epicenter of perfection
watch a mans world freefall in slow motion
awaiting the impact to end it all
waiting for darkness to swallow the flame
leaving the moth lost and without purpose
forgiveness in heart, redemption in hand i reach
fall into my arms and not your back
and i promise to carry you home
though vision blurred, senses dulled
my will to fight grows ever stronger
fueling a fire ready to consume the world
ready to sacrifice it all